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Cop bike being delivered tonight. Tomorrow I'll get the plates and insurance oh & a helmet. After that just ride around & look awesome
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had my first ever physical today...strangely the Dr's scale said I was 200lbs even, while the scale at home says I'm 205lbs. wtf?
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Had teeth cleaned for 1st time since I was 18. They feel fantastic! Found out l was born without wisdom teeth! Guess I'm more evolved!
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Tuesday, 15 May 2012
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How close is too close...
I feel myself walking a tight rope these days. My friendship with my co-worker is blossoming. We share things that we've never shared with our partners. We share our frustrations, our aggravations, as well as our turn on's, and secret desires.
It's messed up. I mean. She's a great woman, but has little confidence in that. She tells me anyone would be lucky to have me...and yet I have little confidence in that. We know how each other's brain works; where we come from; all the hidden subtleties that bubble under the surface that you normally would hide from a significant other for fear of judgement. We give each other advice on how to better each other's relationship, but see in each other what is missing in our own life.
I sense the possibility of disaster though. I think she senses it too. There's an obvious attraction, both physical and mental.
I made the 'mistake' of showing her some of my writing, and now she's pushing for me to write more and more. It's odd to know someone personally that has read what I write, and comments on it positively. It's not the first time that I've received encouragement, but it's a little different when it's random people from some forum on the internet, vs the long legged cutie at the front of the office.
*sigh*
My best chance is to channel the sexual frustration and flirtation I have with her back into my relationship. After talking to her I've realized that secretly I gave up. I gave up on getting my wife to open up, to change, to evolve. She's been stuck in her naive closeted ways for so long she thinks it's normal. It's not. It's a waste of a life. We have everything else...I just want....more. After talking to my co-worker (nearly crying too...how embarassing lol) she's pushing me to push for more...chip away at this wall the wife has erected.
I guess my biggest fear...is what may happen if I get shut down at home. Frustration, resentment and the availability of a possibly willing alternative...is a perfect storm that I can see being difficult to resist.
...please don't hate me for writing this...it's honest...it's how I really feel...and I'm honest to goodness scared.
Monday, 14 May 2012
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Uh oh....
...I did it again...but now I may be in trouble.
Every spring, for the last 5yrs or so I spend some free time out of every day doing a simple web search. It's not for porn...or hookers...or massage parlors with happy endings..or anything remotely nefarious. I search for boats with sails, and motorcycles.
In general I'm able to talk myself out of it. Last year I found 2 catamaran's. One was $4000, and came with a trailer. The other was $2600 and had a trailer but needed some work on one hull. I found a bunch of motorcycles, each with their own special draw....but I managed to talk myself out of all of these things.
I argued the practicallity...the cost... how often would I use these "toys"....etc etc
But now I'm fucked...cause I found a 1979 Police Motorcycle that's being sold for only $1600. I'm seeing it tomorrow evening...and I have a feeling that...I'm probably going to buy it....
it needs a little work... a touch up here and there and a tune up..but all in all...pretty good shape.
G'damn I miss riding....this summer is going to be fun....expensive....but fun. lol
Wednesday, 09 May 2012
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Being practical sucks...
...if I wasn't practical...or perhaps the better word is pragmatic...I would have bought this motorcycle already. :(
Omg...I love it so much! and only $2400.....*sigh*
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The receptionist the temptress
An interesting situation has developed in the last two weeks. While my office-mate has been on holidays I've been able to chat with the receptionist / purchasor do a degree I've never spoken to another person other than online. That is to say when I talk to people online it's much easier to talk about touchy subjects because you know that you're not likely to ever meet in real life. It's a perplexing situation to say the least.
We've talked about our relationships the good and the bad. We've talked about our sex life, sexual desires, needs etc. we've talked about our past (both of us were molested when we were younger)
The most difficult development of this friendship is the realization that we are just as compatible if not more so than our current significant others. A fact that we mutually revealed to each other today. That combined with a mutual strong attraction for each other means for the very first time in my life I've actually been placed in a situation that is extremely tempting.
I realize that it's unlikely that either of us will give in to this temptation but none the less its there and is something we both have to deal with.
The crux of the matter is that it's easy to stay true to someone when you've had no prospects and no opportunities. When you have a very real, very good looking, very sexually vibrant, and stimulating temptation that's where your true character shines through.
Monday, 07 May 2012
Titanic_Spaz
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- Member Since: 11/18/2008
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I’m married, I’m Canadian, and I love satire, sarcasm and wit. If you’re here and you’re asking yourself “Who is this idiotic asshole!”, you likely just read one of my satirical blogs, took it way too literally, and now you should feel a little silly for doing so. I’m not a homophobe, nor am I a misogynistic, moron of a man. I’m intelligent, accepting of others, and thoroughly enjoy mocking those that aren’t.
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